Whenever you face pain and hardship in your life you either adapt and deal with it or you give up. Giving up lets the pain dictate your life. You shut yourself away from happiness, hope, and love. The problem with having a disorder that no one really understands is that people want to help but they don’t know how. Your pain puts a hole in the hearts of those you love. When going through pain it is important to remember the emotional burden that the pain is putting on those around you. This idea of putting others in pain because of my own pain has been bothering me more and more lately.
I don’t like hurting other people, especially those that I love. When I see someone close to me in pain, I feel that pain as well. More and more my disorder has been hurting more than just myself. It has affected those that love me and are the closest to me as well. It is the curse of compassion. The curse of love. I don’t want to hurt the people I love and the worse part is this disorder causes them pain which is worse than the physical pain it inflicts on myself.
When trying to figure out a way to make my disorder less of a burden to others, I have thought about what it would be life if I wasn’t around. Would being gone cause less pain? Perhaps that would stop their painm but that’s not a real solution. The pain of being gone would open an even greater hole in their hearts. Disappearing from someone’s life is the easy way out, it is giving up. When going through pain, I have to remember that there is beauty in pain.
Beauty can be found in pain because it gives you the opportunity to see who really cares. It lets you be more vulnerable, which opens you up to let others into your life. The beauty of pain is that it lets you solidify relationships that may never have been as strong if you had proceeded through life without any hardship and struggle. Pain gives you the opportunity to meet new people and connect with those that feel the same way you do.
There is no way to make people stop hurting because you are hurting. However showing that you control your pain can help. The greatest ways to help others when you are hurting is to recognize the love that people are showing, to show them that you have hope, and to approach life joyfully, which shows that you truly have love and hope in your heart. Realizing that people love you gives a special value to your life and another reason not to give up. Having hope allows you to control your pain and not be controlled by it. Living joyfully not only helps yourself but also others. Living joyfully remind people that there still is hope and love in this world no matter the hardship. I will live my life with Love, Hope, and Joy in my heart and honestly thats the most I can do.
My Life With A Movement Disorder 